so i dont update this enough. so heres and update.
got back early wednesday from virginia. it was great to see palmer cuse i miss that kid tons. even though it was only for monday to wednesday, it really was something i needed to get me outta this slight funk i am in, even though that meant dealing with some akwardness and me breaking down tuesday night. hes such a great guy tho.

today, im finalyl registering for classes at nova (northern virginia community college) meaning good by hartwick. well in the sense im not going to classes there, i still go weekends to party and see my friends.
my class schedual is great. its a work at your own pace online courses. im taking 12 credits. although i couldnt get into the history of ancient cultures, im taking some pretty interesting classes...
im taking:
history of theater i
principles of criminal investigation
survey of criminal justice
and either
history of russia i or intro to cultural geography

i wish i was going to be living down in va this semester, but that will have to wait till may or june and god willing i get an apartment cheap and a good roommate or a friend who wants to room with me.
hence now im posting a looking for roommate ad on here..hehe.
if anyone wants to room with me in northern virgina over the summer. let me know.

So last night was the drag ball! it was awesome. elyssa and i went as jen's(jack) groupie, phil makes a very convincing woman. matt and chuck just came high to watch and dance, grace and kait were dressed as guys as well. all in all a good night. So here are some pictures from that. tonight is the sosu/bu formal and party afterwards so that will be fun.

well, things lately are weird. and thats all im going to say. i figured i might as well update this thing cause i dont do this often enough. But pretty much life is weird, different, interesting, tiring and sometimes boring but okay none the less. so i figured, why not update with a pointless entry. school ends soon. like the end of may. im not sure if i like that idea or not. just cause of stuf thats going on at home. its starting to get like it was back in high school all over again. 

*bleh*

whatever.

[x] I am 18+
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have parents that are still together
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses/contacts.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have them in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life.
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job (not really stealing, since my boss refused to accept payment for my lunch, but ...yea)
[x] I've been fired.

Embarrassment.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public
[ ] I get embarassed easliy

Health.
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend/relative
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Florida.
[ ] I've been to Jamaica.
[ ] I've been to the Bahamas.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to the Dominican Republic
[ ] I've been to Puerto Rico

Experiences.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a star.
[x] I've wished on a star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy in the nuts
[x] I've been to a birthday party
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny-dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car
[x] I've been snowboarding
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[x] I've been skiing.

Relationships.
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.

Honesty/Crime.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[XX] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've ran a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Materialism.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books
[x] I own something from The Gap
[x] I own something I got on e-bay
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random.
[x] I can sing well
[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, black, red or blue
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at things most people wouldn't find funny.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

life is interesting. finally off crutches, and the pain is tolerable now. went to albany today and picked up the drum set my parents bought me for my birthday. i moved it into palmers room today. i get to stay at the dorms till sat, then going home for the night then picking palmer at the airport sunday. its soooo lonely here tho. but newho im looking forward to the sosu/bu formal at the end of the month as well as some parties next weekend(hopefully)

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Put an X in anything that you've done this year...

LOVE
() stayed single..
() got your first kiss
(X) kissed someone new
() made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in a car
(x) kissed in the snow
(X) kissed in the rain
(x) kissed in a store
(x) kissed infront of your parents
() fell in 'love' with a fool
(x) had your heart broken
(X) broke someone else's heart
(X) had a stalker
(X) had a good relationship with someone
(X) got head
() questioned your sexual orientation
() came out of the closet
() gotten pregnant
() gotten someone else pregnant
() had an abortion
() gotten married
() had a divorce
() had a gay marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
(X) dated someone you'll never forget
(X) done something you've regretted
() lost your true love forever
() lost faith in love
() kissed under misletoe

WORK/SCHOOL
(X) got a promotion
(X) got a pay raise
(X) changed jobs
(X) lost your job
(X) quit your job
() dated a co-worker
() dated your boss
() dated your boss' daughter/son
(X) got fired from your job
() got straight A's
(X) met one teacher you really like
(X) met one teacher you really hated
(x) found the subject you love
(x) failed a class
(x) cut class
(X) skipped school
(x) got into a fight with a classmate
(X) did something you were proud of
(X) discovered a new talent
(X) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(X) proved yourself an idiot
(X) embaressed yourself in front of the class
() fell in love with a teacher
() got lead in the school play
(x) made a varsity team
(X) were involved in something you'll never forget

OTHER
(X) painted a picture
(X) wrote a poem
(X) ran a mile
(X) listened to music you couldnt stand
(x) double-dipped
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
() went to camp
(x) threw a surprise party
(X) laughed till you cried
() laughed till you peed in your pants
(X) flirted shamelessly
() visited a foreign country
(x) visted a diff state
(X) cooked a disasterous meal
(X) lost something important to you
(X) got a gift you adore
(X) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
() tried to gain weight
(X) dyed your hair
(X) came close to losing your life
() someone close to you died
(X) reunited with a friend
(X) made an accomplishment that shocked everyone
(X) realized your truest freinds
(x) told a secret that would ruin your life if revealed
() threw a wild party
(X) went to a wild party
(X) drank alchohol
(x) drank alchohol underage
(X) did (a) drug(s)
(X) got drunk
() got arrested
(X) read a great book
(X) saw a great movie
() saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(X)saw your favorite band/artist live
(X) saw someone famous in person
(X) did something you want to tell everyone
(X) Enjoyed this year overall

How many songs: 1686

Sort by song title;
First Song: (Compassion) As Skull Fragments On The Wall- boysets fire
Last Song: zero mechanism- the used

Sort by time;
Shortest Song: the beginning- as i lay dying
Longest Song: neue-weezer

Sort by album;
First Album: 'HOME'- sevendust
Last Album: Your Stories, My Alibies- Matchbook Romance

First 5 song that comes up on Shuffle:
1. Handful of redemption- boysetsfire
2. blinded by chains- avenged sevenfold
3. change the world-anberlin
4. salvation- lamb of god
5. dizzy- orgy

Top Five Most Played Songs:
the leaving song- AFI
bleed like me- trapt
world on fire- sarah mclaughlin
blue- a perfect circle
11th hour- lamb of god

Search ....
1. "sex", how many songs come up? 15
First song: prison sex- tool

2. "death", how many songs come up? 16
First song: silouette serenade- vendetta red

3. "love", how many songs come up? 62
First song: love you like i do- HIM

4."life", how many songs come up:35
First song: comming back to life- blindside

this past week has been AWESOME!! actually these past two weeks have been the best in such a long time. tonight im going to the holiday ball with palmer. it should be fun cause ive never been to a semi formal, and thers like a casino thing going on and dancing and food.Actually ive been spending so much time with him lately...like all the time..i talked with mom today and we are pretty sure i can sped most of winter break with him in virgina. i finally registered for classes today. im looking forward to spring and j-term. i have some awesome classes. but now i have to go get ready,and then work more on my research paper.

10 years ago: (I was 8.)
1. my best friends were chris, michelle, danielle and chealsea
2. i wanted to be an archaeologist
3. i secretly wanted to be a dancer
4. I rode around a tractor
5. The worst thing that happened was i moved to the berkshires.


5 years ago: (I was 13)
1. i didnt really have any best friends.
2. i wanted to be an egyptologist
3. I secretly still slept with my panda
4. did somethings i really shouldn't have done.
5. i was an outcast.


1 year ago: (I was 17.)
1. aisling, sims, weiss, bama and vidoli were my best friends.
2.
3. i got into some serious trouble.
4. i was in a new realationship that seemed okay at the time.
5. happy to be almost outta that school.


Yesterday:
1. my close friends were all of my college friends.
2. bought new plugs for my ears
3. I got into a fight on the phone with someone i thought i was in love with.
4. I was really upset about something to the point that I almost stopped breathing.
5. talked to the guy i liked online most of the night.


5 snacks I like:
1. apple
2. kitkat
3. munchos
4. ramen
5. crackers

5 songs I know all the words to:
1. trapt- bleed like me
2. usher- u got it bad
3. andrea bocelli- con te patiro
4. linkin park- numb
5. AFI- the leaving song


If I had a million dollars:
1. I would travel the world to help people.
2. buy something for all of my close friends.
3. charity
4. buy a place to live thats not too large but a good size
5. set some aside for future needs.

5 things I would never wear:
1. really tight pair of capris
2. bathing suit
3. wool sweater (mainly cause im allergic)
4.
5.


Favorite TV shows:
1. family guy
2. csi
3. OC
4. house
5. robot chicken

5 bad habits:
1. developing crushes
2. forgetting to eat
3. mood swings
4. procrastinating
5. not trusting people


5 biggest joys:
1. wick and all of my friends that are here.
2. alex (cat) and yami (fish)
3. going to concerts with friends
4. knowing that there are people in this world that i really can trust.
5.

tonight totally rocked!
after having a pretty boring day of gaming club and long classes palmer, suzy, phil, christain, mike, and james hung out in new res and played halo for a few hours. i only got into the last two games, but im definetly addicted. but im also deinetly screwed cause i have a paper due at 1 and i havent even started it. i did all the research, but not started writing.
but its definetly been a night of absolutly no conflicts, gamming, singin (suzy and i for the most part, though mike and palmer were signing some metal stuff) and then of course a shit load of great jokes.
palm trees and matching boxers. lol
this weekend should be fun... and so should long weekend since my mom bought the tickets today. YAY!!!!!
as i lay dying should be good as well. same with the whole going to pine lake with the guys.

everywhere i go
i hear the wind say
im broken down
my life is such a shamble
how can i live like this
the worlds a wreck
tears down my face
blood on my wrist
try to dull the pain.
everywhere i go
i hear them say
shes lost her mind
can't save her now
shes broken down
can't help her now
a dying mess
her life a test.

okay, yea so my last message was on crack. but if you had as many GIIIIIIIAnt pixi sticks of doom as i had you would be like that tooo. this weekend has been awwesome!!!!!!
friday: classes, going to see pete get a tattoo with palmer and my roommate, finding the cool store etc.
saturday: pixi sticks, downtown, kinky twister, spending a few hours in a mall smaller than the berkshire mall with some awesome people, pyros, head/sex/poster store again, trying to figure out jumanjii the game, phill being silent and wresteling with all of us. its kinda sad cause mike isnt involved as much anymore. ;_;
next friday we will hopefully have the stuff we bought on the geek site. its like MAJOR amount of caffine. like it s a small piece of chocolate chew with the amount of caffine you find in about 3 large cups of coffee in it. we bought a box of 100 to split between 6 of us. and we also bought jolt drinks and jolt gum. we plan on getting so fucked up on caffine and sugar then go to the roller skating place and whatever else we can find... prolly end up at friendlys with munchies and stuff like they did last night.
i so wonder what pring break is gonna be like living with all them and hitting all the best cali clubs and beaches.
fucking sweet

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant wait to move in to the dorms ... itll be less stressful i think.
im fucking nuts to be not asleep this late at night, especially since i gotta get up tomorrow morning at like the crack of dawn... i havent slept in two days and my head fucking hurts. i stuck with people who have no clue what sleeping in means, so dads gonna be a pain tomorrow... but im being nice... his birthdays on tuesday, hes turning 70...alone. im going out and moms going to ny. i feel real bad that he has to spend his b-day by himself, but so did i. at least i didnt forget that its his b-day.. w/e.. the past is in the past and its now the future.

thing from morgie.

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people:

Ali
Bama
mackenzie
Sidney
Ariel

( meme thing here  )

TEN people you last hung out with:
1. jenny
2. chris
3. dani
4. c.c.
5. kellen
6. ryan
7. michelle
8. kellie
9. kevin
10. will

NINE things I'm wearing:
1. green tube top
2. a plethora of rings and those metal bangles and rubber ones.
3. black boy shorts
4. black c.k. bikini
5. surf-style chocker
6. bandana
7. kitten heels
8. anklet ive had on since i made it on class day
9. black nail polish

EIGHT things on my Mind:
1. my health
2. next weekend
3. lyrics im writing for my friends' band
4. alex
5. moving
6. my friends
7. dad's health
8. college


SEVEN items I Touch everyday:
1. lightswitch
2. drums
3. remote
4. makeup case
5. ipod
6. comp keyboard
7. my cats

SIX things I Do everyday:
1. myspace/facebook
2. shower
3. talk to friends
4. watch either daria or family guy
5. fight with mom
6. go tanning (unless its raining)

FIVE things I want to do before I die:
1. go to australia and hold a koala
2. live in cali or florida
3. go out of the country
4. work on some top profile case
5. spend weeks on a beach and not give two shits about anything.

FOUR things I will Never do:
1. sky dive
2. work in a restaurant... i dont do well working with people and having to be remotely perky about it
3. swim with sharks
4. drop out of college

THREE things I Do when I wake up:
1. brush teeth
2. turn on tv
3. eat

TWO of my favorite foods:
1. lemon herb chicken w/a backed potato
2. tofurkey

ONE person I love more than any other:
1. alex