dreams and dangers

long love survey to be all valentines day like

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 03:37:04 GMT

Love Survey

basic info
* what is your name?: Lindsay
* what is the current date?: Feb 14
* what is your sex?: female
* what is your birthday?: march 18th
* what is your current relationship status?: single
* what is your sexual orientation? (if you don't mind me asking): straight but im bi when drunk.
* what character traits do you look for in a potential interest?: sense of humor, intersting personality, caring
* what sort of people do you like, as far as what they're interested in in life?: usually i go for musicians(specifically guitarists and vocalists) but ive gone for jocks before.
* what physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?: must be cutely attractive..i tend to go for guys who arent fully white i like my men tall, but ive dated guys shorter than me or my height before.
* what kind of fashion-sense attracts you?: it varies. from hardcore punk/goth, metal, prep, sporty.
* what kind of hair style do you find attractive on a potential mate?: either slightly longer or shaved.
* what is the usual age range you look at?: either older or no younger than two to three years
* what traits turn you off?: i dont really have that many.. id say racism, but most of the guys i date tell racist jokes. and id say smokers but yea i smoke.
* do you prefer to date various people, or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?: when i fall, i fall quickly.
* are you afraid to ask people out on dates?: naw

single life
* if you're single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?: yea kinda sorta
* what are the positive points about being single?: You can do whatever you want with who you want (i agree)
* what are the negative points about being single?: you dont have someone there for you, makes valentines day seem stupid.
* when single, do you often find youself longing for companionship?: sometimes
* how well do you handle rejection?: im okay with it
* do you miss your last sweetie?: yes. he was wonderful.
* do you think it's better to look for love, or let it find you?: Let it find you

when you're in a relationship
* if you're currently in a relationship right now, how long have you been in it?: i was in my last one for a year.
* what's the longest relationship you've been in?: over a year
* the shortest?: less than a week
* what are the positive points about being in a relationship?: someones there to hang out with you, having someone to hold you,the sex, the love, feeling wanted... etc(i could go on and on)
* what are the negative points about being in a relationship?: you sometimes neglect your friends
* have you ever gone out with someone you didn't know very well?: Yea
* have you ever gone out with someone you had a crush on?: Yes
* have you ever gone out with someone who had a crush on you?: Yes
* what is an example of an ideal, perfect day with your sweetie?: just being with them and having a good time is perfect. but liqour and weed makes it amazing.. hehe
* how important is it to you to know the exact status of your relationships (ie: "dating", "going steady", etc)?: its very important
* do you think couples should spend a very large amount of time together, or space things out a tad?: just the right amount. I think some people REALLY need to space it out, while others don't spend enough time together and things go to shit because of it(i agree)
* have you ever found yourself worried about commitment?: Yea
* when involved, do you try to think about the here-and-now, or do you often think about the future?: a little of both
* how do you prefer to handle disagreements?: try to work things out
* when in a fight, it is better to euphamize things to soften the hurt, or should one be blunt?: depends
* how do you feel when your mate is mad at you and won't tell you why?: confused and slightly upset.

feelings
* do you have a crush right now?: kinda sorta yes/no
* do they know?: doubtful
* what's the longest period of time you've ever had a crush?: three years
* have you ever confessed your feelings to a crush?: yea sorta
* has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?: Yea
* do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?: just close friends who actually care
* how do you feel about long-distance relationships?: they are complicated but if you really like the person you should be willing to work for it.
* if so, does a phone call with them make you feel better of worse?: better
* have you ever pined for someone when you're not around them?: Yea
* would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?: Maybe
* what would you do if you got pregnant / made her pregnant while in a relationship?: you should tell the person u are with and not hide it.. been there, done that, didnt handle it the right way.
* would you get involved with someone if they were previously married?: maybe
* how big of an issue is your mate's morals, to your compatibility?: u need to have a few
* how big of an issue is political beliefs, to your compatibility?: doesnt matter
* how big of an issue is religion to your compatibility?: doesnt matter
* how big of an issue to you is your mate's ethnicity?: not an issue.. i tend to like ethnic people
* in a potential mate, how important is conversation to you?: very important
* in a potential mate, how important is intelligence to you?: important
* in a potential mate, how important is sense of humor to you?: very important
* in a potential mate, how important is understanding to you?: they need to have it
* in a potential mate, how important is forgiveness to you?: important
* how tangible do your shared feelings have to be? (aka: are words even necessary?): they are necessary, but showing feelings not through words is great too
* what makes your heart flutter, and brings a bit cheesy smile to your face?: hugs, kind words, when i can make a guy smile or really horny hehe. when a guy asks you what is wrong. or tells you you're beautiful when u cry. there are a ton of others.

makin' out
* what was your first kiss like?: My first kiss was innocent and youth. My first real kiss was so damn amazing.
* what parts of a person's body do you find most attractive?: chest,arms, eyss
* what's the first thing you look at when you look at someone you're attracted to?: their overall appearance
* how important is the looks of a mate's face to you?: important I guess
* how important is the looks of a mate's body to you?: according to my friends, i ahve bad taste in men, but i like guys with a little meat on them. some guys are too skinny and boney for my liking.
* when you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it, or the other?: either/or
* when you are about to kiss someone for the first time, do you generally feel calm, or are you nervous?: nervous
* can you generally tell when the time is right for a first kiss to happen with your object of interest?: I usually can tell
* what are you're favorite places to be touched?: hands, boobs, back, butt, face
* what are your favorite places to touch?: back, chest, arms, leg (lol practically anywhere)
* what are you're favorite places to be kissed?: neck, lips, behind my ear.
* what are your favorite places to kiss?: lips, chest.. practically everywhere.
* do you prefer long sensual kisses or shorter pecks?: long but sometimes a lot of short ones are wonderful
* have you ever kissed someone you longed for?: yes
* how did that make you feel?: amazing and happy.
* have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren't seriously involved with?: yea
* were you single at the time?: yea
* what are your ticklish areas?: everywhere hehe
* what are your turn-offs?:meh
* what do you most like about making out?: being held, being touched, the intimacy

sex (there are a lot of action-specific questions I could ask, but I'll save those for the purity tests) (oh, and remember, all this is optional)
* are you a virgin?: no
* if not, would you consider your first time to have been a good one?: it was bad. on a couch. so sketch
* how old were you when you lost your virginity?: 15
* have you ever had sex with someone you loved?: yes... amazing
* have you ever turned down an offer for sex?: once yea
* if you are a virgin, how do you feel about sex?: ...
* if you are a virgin, (rock on!), what are your reasons to stay that way?: ...
* how much do you think sex changes a relationship?: yes.
* has anyone ever walked in on you during love-making?: haha yea. poor misa, ivory and the vaarious other friends.
* on a scale from 1 to 10 (10 being highest) how would you rate your sexual attractiveness?: im said to be an 8
* on a scale from 1 to 10 (10 being highest) how would you rate your - *ahem* - kink factor?: 5.5
* how do you feel about casual sex?: its okay
* at what level of importance does sex factor into your relationships?: its important i guess makes things more intimate
* how important is it to talk frankly about sex?: important
* would you stay with a lover if the love stopped, but the sex was still enjoyable?: idk maybe
* would you stay with a lover if the sex stopped / got boring, but there was still love?: Yea

love
* do you believe in love?: yes
* do you believe in love at first sight?: Not really
* what would it take for you to love someone?: idk
* has someone ever told you they loved you?: yea
* have you ever told someone you loved them and meant it?: Yes
* have you ever told someone you loved them and not meant it?: yes
* do you believe it's necessary to express your love in words, of is just the atmosphere and feelings enough?: You don't always need words, but sometimes they are nice to hear
* are you a monogamous person, or do you believe in open-ended realtionships?: Monogamous
* do you believe love can end, or do you think it never goes away, and just changes, or what?: it changes

marriage
* have you ever been married?: no
* how do you feel about marriage?: im okay with the idea
* if you're currenlty not married, do you foresee yourself ever tying the knot?: Yes
* do you plan on having children some day?: yea
* what are your feelings on polyamoury (an "open" marriage, aka: swinging)?: if that's your thing...
* Do you feel that Bill Clinton's extramatrial affairs were really the business of everyone else in the world?: naw

breakups
* have you ever had your heart broken?: Yes
* have you ever been dumped?: yea
* have you ever dumped someone?: yea
* have you ever mutually broke up with someone?: sorta
* has a romantic companion ever made you cry?: Yes
* did you cry in thier presence?: Yes
* did you cry with them?: iono
* have you ever made a romantic companion cry?: maybe?
* have you ever had an emotional pain so bad it made you sick or physically hurt? yea
* have you ever been unfaithful? if so, how did it make you feel?: never done the unfaithful thing.
* if so, did they find out?: ...
* have you ever been cheated on? if so, how did it make you feel?: i was pissed
* have you ever had to end a relationship due to life changes not related to romance (ie: moving, strict parents, etc)?: yes. it was his parents tho.
* have you ever learned an important lesson as a result of a break up?: ya
the aftermath
* have you ever gotten back together with someone after breaking up?: no comment
* did it work?: ...
* do you believe there's hope for people after they get back together, or do you think the same problems that caused the initial break-up will resurface?: depends
* have you ever broke up and remained friends afterward?: yes
* have you ever broke up and became bitter enemies?: not enemies, just sorta bitter to the other girl that started dating him.
* if so, did you ever made amends?: ..
* have you ever broke up and lost touch?: yea
* have you ever got back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?: Yea
* were you afraid to do so?:naw
* do you ever check up on old flames (weather by asking mutual friends, for example), without actually contacting them?: Yes
* if you've ever lost touch or went sour with someone who you loved, how did it make you feel?: sad i guess.
* have you ever longed to get back together with someone?: ya
* although it surely depends of specific relationships, how long does it take before your out looking for companionship again?: I dunno anymore...im not ready yet after the wonderful year i had with my last love.

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 12:04:52 GMT

so i dont update this enough. so heres and update.
got back early wednesday from virginia. it was great to see palmer cuse i miss that kid tons. even though it was only for monday to wednesday, it really was something i needed to get me outta this slight funk i am in, even though that meant dealing with some akwardness and me breaking down tuesday night. hes such a great guy tho.

today, im finalyl registering for classes at nova (northern virginia community college) meaning good by hartwick. well in the sense im not going to classes there, i still go weekends to party and see my friends.
my class schedual is great. its a work at your own pace online courses. im taking 12 credits. although i couldnt get into the history of ancient cultures, im taking some pretty interesting classes...
im taking:
history of theater i
principles of criminal investigation
survey of criminal justice
and either
history of russia i or intro to cultural geography

i wish i was going to be living down in va this semester, but that will have to wait till may or june and god willing i get an apartment cheap and a good roommate or a friend who wants to room with me.
hence now im posting a looking for roommate ad on here..hehe.
if anyone wants to room with me in northern virgina over the summer. let me know.

Drag Ball

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 18:09:55 GMT

So last night was the drag ball! it was awesome. elyssa and i went as jen's(jack) groupie, phil makes a very convincing woman. matt and chuck just came high to watch and dance, grace and kait were dressed as guys as well. all in all a good night. So here are some pictures from that. tonight is the sosu/bu formal and party afterwards so that will be fun.

not sure what to think nemore.

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 00:00:02 GMT

well, things lately are weird. and thats all im going to say. i figured i might as well update this thing cause i dont do this often enough. But pretty much life is weird, different, interesting, tiring and sometimes boring but okay none the less. so i figured, why not update with a pointless entry. school ends soon. like the end of may. im not sure if i like that idea or not. just cause of stuf thats going on at home. its starting to get like it was back in high school all over again.

*bleh*

whatever.

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 21:35:12 GMT

[x] I am 18+
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have parents that are still together
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses/contacts.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have them in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life.
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job (not really stealing, since my boss refused to accept payment for my lunch, but ...yea)
[x] I've been fired.

Embarrassment.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public
[ ] I get embarassed easliy

Health.
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend/relative
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Florida.
[ ] I've been to Jamaica.
[ ] I've been to the Bahamas.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to the Dominican Republic
[ ] I've been to Puerto Rico

Experiences.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a star.
[x] I've wished on a star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy in the nuts
[x] I've been to a birthday party
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny-dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car
[x] I've been snowboarding
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[x] I've been skiing.

Relationships.
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.

Honesty/Crime.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[XX] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've ran a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Materialism.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books
[x] I own something from The Gap
[x] I own something I got on e-bay
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random.
[x] I can sing well
[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, black, red or blue
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at things most people wouldn't find funny.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 03:23:48 GMT

life is interesting. finally off crutches, and the pain is tolerable now. went to albany today and picked up the drum set my parents bought me for my birthday. i moved it into palmers room today. i get to stay at the dorms till sat, then going home for the night then picking palmer at the airport sunday. its soooo lonely here tho. but newho im looking forward to the sosu/bu formal at the end of the month as well as some parties next weekend(hopefully)

stolen from ali

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 07:16:00 GMT

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Wed, 04 Jan 2006 03:29:19 GMT

Put an X in anything that you've done this year...

LOVE
() stayed single..
() got your first kiss
(X) kissed someone new
() made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in a car
(x) kissed in the snow
(X) kissed in the rain
(x) kissed in a store
(x) kissed infront of your parents
() fell in 'love' with a fool
(x) had your heart broken
(X) broke someone else's heart
(X) had a stalker
(X) had a good relationship with someone
(X) got head
() questioned your sexual orientation
() came out of the closet
() gotten pregnant
() gotten someone else pregnant
() had an abortion
() gotten married
() had a divorce
() had a gay marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
(X) dated someone you'll never forget
(X) done something you've regretted
() lost your true love forever
() lost faith in love
() kissed under misletoe

WORK/SCHOOL
(X) got a promotion
(X) got a pay raise
(X) changed jobs
(X) lost your job
(X) quit your job
() dated a co-worker
() dated your boss
() dated your boss' daughter/son
(X) got fired from your job
() got straight A's
(X) met one teacher you really like
(X) met one teacher you really hated
(x) found the subject you love
(x) failed a class
(x) cut class
(X) skipped school
(x) got into a fight with a classmate
(X) did something you were proud of
(X) discovered a new talent
(X) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(X) proved yourself an idiot
(X) embaressed yourself in front of the class
() fell in love with a teacher
() got lead in the school play
(x) made a varsity team
(X) were involved in something you'll never forget

OTHER
(X) painted a picture
(X) wrote a poem
(X) ran a mile
(X) listened to music you couldnt stand
(x) double-dipped
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
() went to camp
(x) threw a surprise party
(X) laughed till you cried
() laughed till you peed in your pants
(X) flirted shamelessly
() visited a foreign country
(x) visted a diff state
(X) cooked a disasterous meal
(X) lost something important to you
(X) got a gift you adore
(X) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
() tried to gain weight
(X) dyed your hair
(X) came close to losing your life
() someone close to you died
(X) reunited with a friend
(X) made an accomplishment that shocked everyone
(X) realized your truest freinds
(x) told a secret that would ruin your life if revealed
() threw a wild party
(X) went to a wild party
(X) drank alchohol
(x) drank alchohol underage
(X) did (a) drug(s)
(X) got drunk
() got arrested
(X) read a great book
(X) saw a great movie
() saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(X)saw your favorite band/artist live
(X) saw someone famous in person
(X) did something you want to tell everyone
(X) Enjoyed this year overall

randomness

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 22:28:59 GMT

How many songs: 1686

Sort by song title;
First Song: (Compassion) As Skull Fragments On The Wall- boysets fire
Last Song: zero mechanism- the used

Sort by time;
Shortest Song: the beginning- as i lay dying
Longest Song: neue-weezer

Sort by album;
First Album: 'HOME'- sevendust
Last Album: Your Stories, My Alibies- Matchbook Romance

First 5 song that comes up on Shuffle:
1. Handful of redemption- boysetsfire
2. blinded by chains- avenged sevenfold
3. change the world-anberlin
4. salvation- lamb of god
5. dizzy- orgy

Top Five Most Played Songs:
the leaving song- AFI
bleed like me- trapt
world on fire- sarah mclaughlin
blue- a perfect circle
11th hour- lamb of god

Search ....
1. "sex", how many songs come up? 15
First song: prison sex- tool

2. "death", how many songs come up? 16
First song: silouette serenade- vendetta red

3. "love", how many songs come up? 62
First song: love you like i do- HIM

4."life", how many songs come up:35
First song: comming back to life- blindside

snow! yay

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 22:28:54 GMT

this past week has been AWESOME!! actually these past two weeks have been the best in such a long time. tonight im going to the holiday ball with palmer. it should be fun cause ive never been to a semi formal, and thers like a casino thing going on and dancing and food.Actually ive been spending so much time with him lately...like all the time..i talked with mom today and we are pretty sure i can sped most of winter break with him in virgina. i finally registered for classes today. im looking forward to spring and j-term. i have some awesome classes. but now i have to go get ready,and then work more on my research paper.

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 17:05:33 GMT

10 years ago: (I was 8.)
1. my best friends were chris, michelle, danielle and chealsea
2. i wanted to be an archaeologist
3. i secretly wanted to be a dancer
4. I rode around a tractor
5. The worst thing that happened was i moved to the berkshires.

5 years ago: (I was 13)
1. i didnt really have any best friends.
2. i wanted to be an egyptologist
3. I secretly still slept with my panda
4. did somethings i really shouldn't have done.
5. i was an outcast.

1 year ago: (I was 17.)
1. aisling, sims, weiss, bama and vidoli were my best friends.
2.
3. i got into some serious trouble.
4. i was in a new realationship that seemed okay at the time.
5. happy to be almost outta that school.

Yesterday:
1. my close friends were all of my college friends.
2. bought new plugs for my ears
3. I got into a fight on the phone with someone i thought i was in love with.
4. I was really upset about something to the point that I almost stopped breathing.
5. talked to the guy i liked online most of the night.

5 snacks I like:
1. apple
2. kitkat
3. munchos
4. ramen
5. crackers

5 songs I know all the words to:
1. trapt- bleed like me
2. usher- u got it bad
3. andrea bocelli- con te patiro
4. linkin park- numb
5. AFI- the leaving song

If I had a million dollars:
1. I would travel the world to help people.
2. buy something for all of my close friends.
3. charity
4. buy a place to live thats not too large but a good size
5. set some aside for future needs.

5 things I would never wear:
1. really tight pair of capris
2. bathing suit
3. wool sweater (mainly cause im allergic)
4.
5.

Favorite TV shows:
1. family guy
2. csi
3. OC
4. house
5. robot chicken

5 bad habits:
1. developing crushes
2. forgetting to eat
3. mood swings
4. procrastinating
5. not trusting people

5 biggest joys:
1. wick and all of my friends that are here.
2. alex (cat) and yami (fish)
3. going to concerts with friends
4. knowing that there are people in this world that i really can trust.
5.

like a palm tree!

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 06:56:22 GMT

tonight totally rocked!
after having a pretty boring day of gaming club and long classes palmer, suzy, phil, christain, mike, and james hung out in new res and played halo for a few hours. i only got into the last two games, but im definetly addicted. but im also deinetly screwed cause i have a paper due at 1 and i havent even started it. i did all the research, but not started writing.
but its definetly been a night of absolutly no conflicts, gamming, singin (suzy and i for the most part, though mike and palmer were signing some metal stuff) and then of course a shit load of great jokes.
palm trees and matching boxers. lol
this weekend should be fun... and so should long weekend since my mom bought the tickets today. YAY!!!!!
as i lay dying should be good as well. same with the whole going to pine lake with the guys.

lyrics to a song i wrote about a.d.

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 18:50:14 GMT

everywhere i go
i hear the wind say
im broken down
my life is such a shamble
how can i live like this
the worlds a wreck
tears down my face
blood on my wrist
try to dull the pain.
everywhere i go
i hear them say
shes lost her mind
can't save her now
shes broken down
can't help her now
a dying mess
her life a test.

callie mcguiver... yup thats my new name according to matt

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 06:52:34 GMT

okay, yea so my last message was on crack. but if you had as many GIIIIIIIAnt pixi sticks of doom as i had you would be like that tooo. this weekend has been awwesome!!!!!!
friday: classes, going to see pete get a tattoo with palmer and my roommate, finding the cool store etc.
saturday: pixi sticks, downtown, kinky twister, spending a few hours in a mall smaller than the berkshire mall with some awesome people, pyros, head/sex/poster store again, trying to figure out jumanjii the game, phill being silent and wresteling with all of us. its kinda sad cause mike isnt involved as much anymore. ;_;
next friday we will hopefully have the stuff we bought on the geek site. its like MAJOR amount of caffine. like it s a small piece of chocolate chew with the amount of caffine you find in about 3 large cups of coffee in it. we bought a box of 100 to split between 6 of us. and we also bought jolt drinks and jolt gum. we plan on getting so fucked up on caffine and sugar then go to the roller skating place and whatever else we can find... prolly end up at friendlys with munchies and stuff like they did last night.
i so wonder what pring break is gonna be like living with all them and hitting all the best cali clubs and beaches.
fucking sweet

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 04:33:12 GMT

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bored

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 18:47:56 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Lindsay kathaleen murphy
Birthday:	3/18/87
Birthplace:	springfield, ma
Current Location:	oneonta, ny
Eye Color:	greenish
Hair Color:	brownish red (actually natural)
Height:	5'5''-5'6'' idk
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	scotch, english, irish, mic mac/ maliseete, mongolian, french, german, dutch, polish, canadian, and a few others
The Shoes You Wore Today:	what kate calls toe shield sandals
Your Weakness:	quirky personalities
Your Fears:	that ill get soo depressed again and just like end it all
Your Perfect Pizza:	no red sauce, extra cheese, feta, chicken
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	stop flirting with everyone that walks by me
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol...
Thoughts First Waking Up:	ugh
Your Best Physical Feature:	eyes or hands
Your Bedtime:	whenever i get back to my room and completely crash
Your Most Missed Memory:	some of my friends
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi edge
MacDonalds or Burger King:	neither.. i dont eat beef
Single or Group Dates:	single..
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	swirl
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappiccino
Do you Smoke:	sometimes
Do you Swear:	fuck yea
Do you Sing:	yup
Do you Shower Daily:	more than once a day
Have you Been in Love:	yes... unfortunatly
Do you want to go to College:	already there
Do you want to get Married:	possibly... if i find someone who does annoy the hell outta me
Do you belive in yourself:	not enough
Do you get Motion Sickness:	yea.. in cars and rollercoasters
Do you think you are Attractive:	not at all
Are you a Health Freak:	you could say that
Do you get along with your Parents:	my dad-yes, mom-its hard to say
Do you like Thunderstorms:	absolutly love them
Do you play an Instrument:	drums, hand percussion, piano/keyboard, harmonica, accordian, and a little bass and guitar.. i like bass more tho.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	nope
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	on prescritions
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	.. sorta.. its diffucult to say
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yea
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	god no. hate oreos
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	nope
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no..
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	yes
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	not intentionally
Ever been Drunk:	yea
Ever been called a Tease:	god all the time
Ever been Beaten up:	not putside of karate
Ever Shoplifted:	once
How do you want to Die:	quick... i dont want to suffer... preferably with someone i love there.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	forensic photographer/crime scene investigator.
What country would you most like to Visit:	either costa rica, australia, or much of europe
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	doesnt matter
Favourite Hair Color:	brownish-blondish or weird colors
Short or Long Hair:	not too short
Height:	my height, yet it really doesnt matter
Weight:	not sure... i dont really care
Best Clothing Style:	their own style, grundgy punkish goth is good
Number of Drugs I have taken:	not gonna say
Number of CDs I own:	over 300
Number of Piercings:	8
Number of Tattoos:	1
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	numerous to infinite
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 07:41:38 GMT

i cant wait to move in to the dorms ... itll be less stressful i think.
im fucking nuts to be not asleep this late at night, especially since i gotta get up tomorrow morning at like the crack of dawn... i havent slept in two days and my head fucking hurts. i stuck with people who have no clue what sleeping in means, so dads gonna be a pain tomorrow... but im being nice... his birthdays on tuesday, hes turning 70...alone. im going out and moms going to ny. i feel real bad that he has to spend his b-day by himself, but so did i. at least i didnt forget that its his b-day.. w/e.. the past is in the past and its now the future.

ttough shit.

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 07:01:17 GMT

i'll take you away, to a place that you'll love.
i'll take you, so your mind's at ease.
i'll take to you to the place, that your heart knows the most.
to a place with just you and me.

but if i had to say
what means most to you
is that feeling way deep inside
you hide it and hide it and shut it away.
its something you dont want me to find.

hurt more than once
you quell what you feel,
not wanting it to show on the outside
but deep in your heart, you know the truth.
and it makes you want to die.

meme

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 06:23:37 GMT

thing from morgie.

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people:

Ali
Bama
mackenzie
Sidney
Ariel

I miss somebody right now.
I don’t watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I’ve watched porn movies. (does hentai count?)
I have been in a threesome. More than once
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (god yeah)
I hate the rain.
I’m paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning. (usually)
I have long hair. (for the first time in awhile!!!)
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.(I agree with morgan)
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
Slept with a Suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (both!)
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (have you MET my mom??)
I have a cell phone.
I believe in (a) God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. (I believe everyone does, even the smartest person.)
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex(…..and same sex.)
I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past. (only once)
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
I enjoy some country music. (only dixi chicks and willie nelson)
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I’m obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (only once)
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. (liking it is a stretch… its kinda mind numbing)
I have dated a close friend’s ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I am proficient on a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.(only in showers or hot tubs)
I went to college out of state. (sorta… yes cept we are moving now to ny..gah)
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (too many fucking times)
I love kisses. (definetly)
I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time. (almost every… cept this one right now)
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.(god yea)
I think school is awesome. (sometimes)
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don’t like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I f**king hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes’ slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I’ve often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (all the time)
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood. (hell yea)
I would not be friends if they weren’t family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I love vaginas.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (god yea)
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed
I love wrestling
I collect comic books/manga
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I own more than ten video game consoles.
I learn things far more quickly than my peers.
You wouldn't know it, but I'm a very religious person
and the one true thing is: there is a constant war of thoughts and emotions consuming me from inside… Im lost with out a clue as to what I should do.

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.
Ali
Bama
mackenzie
Sidney
Ariel

stole from amanda

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 02:06:45 GMT

TEN people you last hung out with:
1. jenny
2. chris
3. dani
4. c.c.
5. kellen
6. ryan
7. michelle
8. kellie
9. kevin
10. will

NINE things I'm wearing:
1. green tube top
2. a plethora of rings and those metal bangles and rubber ones.
3. black boy shorts
4. black c.k. bikini
5. surf-style chocker
6. bandana
7. kitten heels
8. anklet ive had on since i made it on class day
9. black nail polish

EIGHT things on my Mind:
1. my health
2. next weekend
3. lyrics im writing for my friends' band
4. alex
5. moving
6. my friends
7. dad's health
8. college

SEVEN items I Touch everyday:
1. lightswitch
2. drums
3. remote
4. makeup case
5. ipod
6. comp keyboard
7. my cats

SIX things I Do everyday:
1. myspace/facebook
2. shower
3. talk to friends
4. watch either daria or family guy
5. fight with mom
6. go tanning (unless its raining)

FIVE things I want to do before I die:
1. go to australia and hold a koala
2. live in cali or florida
3. go out of the country
4. work on some top profile case
5. spend weeks on a beach and not give two shits about anything.

FOUR things I will Never do:
1. sky dive
2. work in a restaurant... i dont do well working with people and having to be remotely perky about it
3. swim with sharks
4. drop out of college

THREE things I Do when I wake up:
1. brush teeth
2. turn on tv
3. eat

TWO of my favorite foods:
1. lemon herb chicken w/a backed potato
2. tofurkey

ONE person I love more than any other:
1. alex

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 04:07:45 GMT

1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal, or else!

catholic school girls.

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 05:49:47 GMT

You know you're a catholic school girl when....

1) You spend at least 5 days a week at your school or doing school work.
2) You know where most of your teachers live.
3) You don't know the meaning of the words "work" or "study."
4) You have mastered the art of cheating.
5) Parents seem to think you're such a great influence on their child.
6) Your parents think you are perfect and believe whatever you say.
7) At one time you almost liked your uniform... almost.
8) The minute school is over you look like you just got out of the Britney Spears video.
9) You get kicks out of being able to wear pajamas to school.
10) You have a way of making yourself look sooo innocent... when we all know you're really not.
11) By the time you hit ninth grade, you had figured how to get yourself in and out of your house without your parents knowing.
12) You lie a lot; more than any public school kid you know.
13) You know more classmates who smoke weed than dont.
14) You're obsessed with Dave Matthews.
15) It costs you $100 to park in your school's lot.
16) You only have one pep rally per school year.
17) Your parents spend over $300 a year on your school books.
18) Your parents bought you a car.
19) Everyone hugs each other when they greet people.
20) At dances you form an all-girls circle that no guy can take over.
21) You have the best bunch of friends and no one will ever ruin that.
22) You DON'T wear a cross.
23) You have redefined what an oxford is.
24) Schools with shorts can kiss your skirt.
25) You're blonde, or once were...naturally or not...or wish you were.
26) You rarely shave during the winter and if you do you leave it for weekends.
27) You try to get as many dress code violations in one day without getting caught as possible.
28) You know what a demerit is.
29) You bring an endless supply of green, navy, or maroon knee socks to college with you.
30) You drink excessively on the weekend, or whenever you go out.
31) Your idea of a "different" weekend is drinking a new kind of alcohol.
32) Drinking isn't just a hobby for you... it's a career...and something to be very proud of.
33) You have been caught drinking at one time or another, probably at a school dance.
34) You conclude that the nuns are bitches due to lack of sex.
35) You are a closet whore.
36) You have countless obsessions with guys you've never even spoken to and insist on visiting their home/work every night of the weekend.
37) When you go out, you always plan to hook up.
38) You do dirty things w/ guys every time you have a chance.
39) You become fixated on meeting or talking to the guy of your dreams all the time!
40) Your first kiss was from a Mike,Christopher,John or Andrew.
41) At least one of your friends will have thought they were pregnant by your junior year of high school.
42) In ninth grade, you figured out how to get guys in and out of your house without your parents knowing.
43) You have no problem joking about being a lesbian.
44) You know how to tie a tie, but not on yourself.
45) You spend many a theology class listening to your teacher preach about the
Catholic church's take on premarital sex.
46) When you meet people for the first time they know you go to Catholic school because... "Catholic school girls are crazy!"
47) You've shoplifted sometime before in your life...and broken many other laws for that matter.
48) You dont know anyone in your classes who hasn't cheated at least once.
49) You can out-eat any guy you know!
50) You have tried to get out of going to church on Sunday by saying "But I prayed all week."
51) You seriously don't know how to shut up.
52) "Remember whens..." are your specialty.
53) "Only the Good Die Young" is a song to live by.
54) You've put endless amounts of gum underneath a pew during school mass.
55) You play field hockey, basketball, or swim. You like to cheer, but hate cheerleaders.
56) At least one of your friends is named: Katie, Lauren, or Megan.
57) Your name has a Catherine, Mary, Elizabeth or Ann in it, or any variation of these names.
58) You have sworn that you will never, ever send your kids to Catholic school.
59) Everyone knows everything about everyone else's business!
60) What happened on Friday night is all around school by Monday morning before first period.
61) Some of the teachers are in on the student body gossip.
62) You are able to give a detailed description of pretty much everyone in your class.
63) Good little catholic school angel...or should I say devil
64) You go to the football games, but don't have a clue as to what is going on.
65) When you wear your school skirt, you can see your ass crack.
66) You stopped caring what your hair looked like after the first week of school.
67) You own at least one pair of Victoria Secret thongs.
68) You get happy when you see a misake.
69) You started laughing when you reached this number.

haha this is sooooo true.

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 04:36:44 GMT

alex called yesterday and i was so damn tired from lack of sleep- only one hour or so- and she seemed really frusterated with me cause i was tired... i feel so bad cause its costing her alot everytime she calls, and she can only call once a week. but she'll be home soon and then she'll be with me!!!! we are having the worst time packing, mainly cuase im allergic to everything. i was sick for two days after we cleaned out the small guest house of boxes. i still have so much to pack, but i dont have the energy. i hate how every little thing is resting on my shoulders.

he's turning 70 in a week.

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 04:49:07 GMT

okay, so im having the weirdest month... not only did i find my three friends from springfield, but i was email someone at hartwick, and i find out that this kid i knew at OLSH is a freshman at hartwick and we are in the same english class. ive been looking everywhere for chris and i finally found him... this is gonna be so weird.

i still need to pack more... i have made such a mess of my room... im so not motivated... part of me really does not want to leave here... even though there are so many bad memories. but there are my friends and all the places i love here... so im torn.

accidents

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 04:29:58 GMT

The stars about the lovely moon
Fade back and vanish very soon,
When, round and full, her silver face
Swims into sight, and lights all space. ~Sappho

on the way back from ny today this asshole decideds that it is funny to drop large chunks of sharp metal pieces on the highway. the guy was in front of us. and we never saw it comming. it hit our car, we hear a huge smashing noise. then the car started to make some really weird noises. we go directly to the rest stop ahead. our whole back tire is slashed apart and pieces of the back of the undercar are damaged then the tires explode.

such a great time, im telling ya. *rolls eyes*